“You’ve done it before, you can do it again!”
Yep, I’ve lost 100 pounds before. But that was before. Before becoming a mom. Before being cut open. Before surges of hormones racing through my system like they are now. I’ve never had to balance so much before. Taking care of a tiny human, quality time with a fiancé (and dogs!), keeping up with our home, having a job, allowing my body to heal, and working on my fitness- all simultaneously. I have lost 100 pounds before, but that was all I had to focus on then.
My daughter is the best thing that’s ever happened to me. She is perfect in every way. I made some mistakes throughout my pregnancy; I gave into the exhaustion and the cravings and, before I knew it, I gained upwards of 70 pounds. As if being very overweight while working in the fitness industry isn’t enough to cause insecurity and embarrassment, add in the hormone fluctuation- a perfect recipe for depression. My daughter deserves a mom who is happy and healthy. If I don’t have the strength to do it for myself right now, I need to do it for her. The way I feel about and talk about myself will not only damage my well-being, but will also damage hers. She learns by watching and listening. I need to be an example for my beautiful little girl. I need to teach her that she needs to love & respect herself and the only way to teach her that, is to re-learn it myself. To hear and believe in my own head that I’m worth it. The way I look at it is I have two choices; to let how I currently feel weigh me down (pun intended) or let it motivate me to become better and stronger than I ever was. I choose the latter.
That’s what this journey is about. It’s not about “bouncing back.” It’s about bouncing FORWARD into this new life, new body, and new me. Mom edition.